because he saved me

First off, 

this post will give no credit for what it truly deserves

and it won't come out the way that I wish it would,

but bare with me. 

Landon Robert Bell, the name absolutely takes my breath away. From the day I first met him he was the absolute sweetest, kind hearted, hilarious, spiritual, lovely human I ever did meet. Everyday I thank my Heavenly Father for placing him in my life and just when I needed him the most. A man who has lost his loved ones at such a young age that was able to over come it and become strong from it. Who has a medical condition that he takes over and doesn't let it change who he is. A man who loves the Lord and the opportunity he had to serve his King and bring people unto Christ. The hardest working man that I know who truly works for his money in such a way that he has his mind set on achieving his goals. One who gives his whole heart to me so that I live each day. Landon seriously is, without a doubt, the man I would forever choose to make me whole for the rest of my life. I am the most blessed woman in the entire world and I will never deny nor let anyone think otherwise. Landon came into my life twice, both at the perfect times. The first time is when I was a senior. It was in April/May of 2012 that I wanted to just be done with high school and had no motivation to get up in the morning and finish. With his sweet texts and messages of encouragement through out the day, he made it all worth it. It's silly, but at that time, I wanted to date him and really really liked him. Things split and we went about our way, nothing happened and that was just it. I went to snow and he served his mission. When he got home, I was dating a boy, a mean boy and we will leave it at that. I was reminded of Landon and wondered why he had been in me for so long? Why couldn't I let go of this image placed in my mind of the first butterflies he gave me and the softest kisses he would place on my forehead as we said goodnight?With fear, I added him on facebook and within a few minutes, he wrote me. Thankful I added him and was giving him another chance to sweep me off my feet and he did just that. I left every thing I had pretended to love and left it behind. Each day with him, I realized that I had been lost. I had been wishing for complete discus for my future and just wanting something, anything. As I found myself, no, I won't give myself the credit, as I dated Landon, he led me to finding myself. The Jalissa that had been gone for so long, he had finally brought back to life. I suddenly saw light and found reason to wake up, and not just to go to work, but to live life. Church came back to me every Sunday and I spoke to my Heavenly Father more often than ever before. The Lord blessed me a great deal, giving me Landon and I still am trying to find reason to why? Landon reminded me of the small things that make me happy, like an evening out on the town at a bee's game or finding neat things at an antique store. Hiking in the mountains to the sound of a blissful soundtrack of nature, or having a picnic on a summer day at an empty park. Not only did he help me to remember the things I once loved, but he brought new and fun into my life, like boating on a lake on a Wednesday morning! Or fishing and building. Music that I never would have found that I now love, none of that would've happened if I never met him. I honestly owe Heavenly Father all that I have because of such a tremendous and beautiful blessing that he gave me. I have learned to give more meaning to what I enjoy, to share with others the gospel, to give to those who are less fortunate than me, to laugh and to love. Now, after all my struggles, heart aches and break downs. After all the scream music I sang at the top of my lungs, the hatred I once felt for all those who said I was no good or maybe that I would never find someone compatible to me or that the grass isn't always greener on the other side, I tip my hat to you guys. The haters! Because I jumped as far as I could and I landed in the most green grass that ever was planted. It's because Landon was preparing himself for me, he was watering himself and the surroundings he lived in. He bloomed and became the most beautiful 'thing' that Heavenly Father planted in my path, ever. I am so thankful, beyond words and I could never express my gratitude to Heavenly Father, Landon, my parents, sisters and all others, how grateful I am for each and everyone of them. I was so lost and they all kept by my side as I was slugishly dragged through time till I could finally walk on my own. I owe it to Landon, for coming to the rescue in more ways than one. From saving my life and giving it great purpose that he made me understand. To making me fully accept who I am and the way I am. Helping me realize that I am beautiful and I should be confident with my body, because it's hawt. To making me understand more and forgive more. Landon is incredible and I will never be able to express the love I have for him for it's far too much. More than the sand and stars and all things on earth, big or small. I love you more than it all Landon. Forever. Everyday. Another thing, he loves me just the same and that is what makes our love perfect. I might've dreamed of marrying someone totally different than Landon when I was younger, but I am thankful that Heavenly Father knocked some sense into me and I did what he planned on me doing. My heart is so full of love and joy and forever will be.

Landon, you're my hero.