Looking into the FAR future

Currently, I work for a title company as a receptionist which calls for quite some time for me. Okay, that's a lie, I am always by myself and that gets me into trouble. I read all sorts of articles online and decide what the world is like from there, hoping one day I will actually be able to experience it for myself, but for now I will just pretend and imagine. Recently through my readings (most of the articles I find are through good ol' facebook) I have found so many great reads! Today, I found one by Brianne McDonald called, 'I don't want to protect my daughter. I want to prepare her.' Now, I obviously don't have a daughter but there was a section in there that totally struck me. Growing up and getting married, you really have to decide a lot of things that will absolutely affect you whether it be a good or a bad thing. As I struggle through trials that have been handed to me, stress blocks that have been placed right before my feet, I noticed that it has always been with the help of my Heavenly Father that I get back on track. I have learned so much through out the past few years and how grateful I am for those times in my life to help me become who I am today. The section in there that I will share shortly is the kind of mom I want to be in the future. She put it in words that almost literally made me cry (but that's only because I am on an emotional roller coaster due to the big W word) and here it is.

"I refuse to hold her hand through everything, but I will always be there. I’ll be just behind her to catch her when she stumbles; I’ll be there when she needs a supportive push or an understanding smile with a nod of encouragement. That’s me, I’m the woman on the sidelines, offering advice, guidance and support, but ultimately they are her steps. They will be her choices, ones that she will have to live with and that I won’t be able to change or make for her. My ‘job’ is to help ensure that she knows which direction to walk in and that she is prepared to handle whatever life throws at her along the way."

With my own experience, I want to be this mom. I want my kids to be proud of who their mother is and to look up to me.  I want to cherish my kids more than anything and both Landon and I have goals for that. Reading this article really put me in a spot where I can start forming and preparing to become that mom or I can continue as I am and get a hit in the face when the time comes. We have about three to five years to start preparing, but the time is now. To prepare now and become the wife, and soon to be mother, that I have always dreamed of being.